Starting point

The idea of creating a blog came out of my mind and I guess I will just make it happen. It has been something it my parents have been suggesting me to try on doing ~ for about 10 years now. Now I see why. I am not sure how to explain it but it sure is a good way to keep thoughts and memory in record. 

Let's talk about starting point. 

Some bigger changes going on in my life right now: 

• Switching to graphic design major in my current school
• Coming Back to Hong Kong for... quite a bit (7 months, potentially?) 
• Finished my first and ever internship
• Assured that I actually enjoy doing motion design (I mean, it's difficult but I am still having a lot of fun) 
• Started a more systematic lifestyle 
• Adulting?

It's weird. I feel like I am ready for this phase of my life, but at the same time I feel the uncertainties are crashing against me. I also can't help but to compare myself to my brother. Who has a stable job. Relatively high become. Working on big projects. Meanwhile there's me who is struggling with even aligning text in InDesign. I know I will get there but it takes time. I see changes but I also blame myself I am not so close to where I want to be. Or even I am not sure who I want to become. 

I have been comparing my myself to my brother for my whole life. I know there's something I do better than him and we are all unique individuals that shouldn't be comparing to one another but it's hard not to when you have a brother like him. I had been pushing myself to be a great student like him when obviously I knew we were heading into different paths. I started to take time for myself and slow down. Think about why and how I feel about things around me. I see it as a journey to understand myself better so that I can reflect on it. 

I started to understand I may not be that kind of 'gifted kid' that does everything well - this is why art and design is different. I do know there's that something special in my design that I am yet to discover. I know it is there but it has been waiting for all this time for me to discover it. It must be laying somewhere outside of my comfort zone. 

Recently I also started picking up motion design again - instead of working for the sake of following a tutorial - I actually learnt more when the skill is being put in context. I 

I would never have thought of the decision of switching to graphic design a year ago. I was literally in a mess and god knows for what reasons I started to appreciate smaller things in life this year. Perhaps it is the quarantine. Perhaps it was the first typography class I had taken. I started liking how system works-but-breaking-them-and-still-making-it-works. That is graphic design, a major I was so sure I wouldn't like at the very beginning. 

As this blog is dedicated to my 

In the next post I will post about my new year resolution (the ones known to be unrealistic)